Name: The Biggest Pain
Duration: P00H04M30S
Description: Domestic violence is a horrible thing and most commonly women are victims, I tried, however, to write a song from the perspective of a male victim.

The Biggest Pain

from Buy a Graphic Novel by Zansman

	/

Streaming + Download

about

Domestic violence is a horrible thing and most commonly women are victims, I tried, however, to write a song from the perspective of a male victim.

lyrics

The Biggest Pain

After work I take a little detour
I drive around the park a bit alone
And you might wonder what that could be for
I need some time to think before I get home
I realize that I have got some issues
But of course I won't let anybody know
I'll go to the store and buy a pack of tissues
Hide out in my car and let them flow

And yes it hurts
for what it's worth
I never cried when someone saw me
And as I hide scars
I wish I was behind bars
I never thought I'd be so poorly

She comes out of the bathroom with an iron
I try to hide my fear as I walk around
In the mindgame of life anyone can be a tyrant
and it's not always the way it sounds
I always wished we'd get back on the right track
But a part of me wants to keep it hid
I often wish that I could fight back
but I know I'd be a monster if I did

And yes it hurts
for what it's worth
I never cried when someone saw me
And as I hide scars
I wish I was behind bars
I never thought I'd be so poorly

But I hold my head high
as I quietly sight
Knowing Rocky was bruised too
It may sound insane
but the biggest pain
is you don't love me like you used to

Maybe I'm overreacting
Maybe if I had the nerve
it would be easier to face the facts
It would be easier to live
Maybe I'm just retracting
Maybe I deserve it
She has been through a lot
Maybe I'm the better man if I just forgive

And yes it hurts
for what it's worth
I never cried when someone saw me
And as I hide scars
I wish I was behind bars
I never thought I'd be so poorly

But I hold my head high
as I quietly sight
Knowing Rocky was bruised too
It may sound insane
but the biggest pain
is we don't love the way we used to

But I hold my head high
as I quietly sight
Knowing others have bruised too
It may sound insane
but the biggest pain
Is I still love you like I used to

credits

from Buy a Graphic Novel, released July 12, 2019
Written by me in April 2019
Recorded April 2019

license

about

Zansman Bergen, Norway

contact / help

Contact Zansman

Streaming and
Download help

Report this track or account

If you like Zansman, you may also like:

Six Million Miles From Nowhere
by Spaceman

As Spaceman, Stephen Munson of UK cult band Living In Texas makes lo-fi pop that shuffles and stomps. Bandcamp New & Notable Jun 22, 2023
go to album
Better Lives
by Feral Conservatives

Feral Conservatives specialize in elegantly ornamented guitar pop, centered around Rashie Rosenfarb’s emotive vocals. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 18, 2017
go to album
Weird Faith
by Madi Diaz

More folk-inflected confessionals on love, loss, and anxiety — plus a Kacey Musgraves cameo —from the Nashville indie pop auteur. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 11, 2024
go to album
Jai
by Uma

This project from the Spanish indie-pop singer explores nostalgia and joy. Bandcamp New & Notable Sep 19, 2023
go to album
Shirley Hurt
by Shirley Hurt

This debut from the Canadian indie artist features pop, folk, and country influences. Bandcamp New & Notable Dec 2, 2022
go to album
The Woman You Want
by Eliza Shaddad

Haddad returns with cinematic soundscapes that include introspective folk, post-grunge, and indie-pop influences. Bandcamp New & Notable Jul 16, 2021
go to album
Caprice
by re:ruby

Breezy acoustic pop from Dunedin, “Caprice” floats feathery vocals over sunny guitars and keys. Bandcamp New & Notable Dec 9, 2019
go to album