Inspired by the death of Phil Spector and wondering how it feels like to be a murderer when someone is met with such hate after their death. I tried to write a song from the point of view of someone who had killed in the past and done their time in prison and are trying to get back to society.
lyrics
Will I ever?
An eye in the dark
the mouth of the shark
The sky is full of dying stars
the road is paved with traps
Will I ever relapse?
Will I ever relapse?
Verse 1
Here I sit with my thoughts and wits
I've tricked them in the arms of me
Sure it's all me, but people call me
a victim of society
I wish I could have lost
all the blood on my hands that can't be washed off
It's become a farse
the world we thought was ours
An eye in the dark
the mouth of the shark
My heart is full of remorse
My mind is full of lies
will I ever not hear their cries?
will I ever not hear their cries?
Verse 2
When I got out came all the doubts
The hated one's finally returned
And these are skills I guess you may not put on your resume
I guess now I rake in what I've earned
Like I went to a party but I wasn't invited
and someone called me "sir" I didn't know I was knighted
And my apologies are true
If they only knew
An eye in the dark
the mouth of the shark
I do what I can
they do what they must
Will I ever earn their trust?
Will I ever earn their trust?
An eye in the dark
the mouth of the shark
Death is my lifeline
My life has seen the end
Will I ever live again?
will I ever live again?
An eye in the dark
the mouth of the shark
Though I am out
the chains are still in me
Will I ever break free?
will I ever break free?
Will I ever will I ever?
will I ever break free?
credits
from Den sjette Zansman,
released May 7, 2021
Written by René January-March 2021
Recorded March 2021
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