1. |
Buy a Graphic Novel
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Buy a Graphic Novel
At twelve I was slowly finding myself
I tried to skateboard, dumb as I was then
Like a turtle out of his shell
finding out I'd hate boredom more than when I was ten
And promised future me
But I failed like usually
saying "I'll never be bored again"
At seventeen I thought of all I had seen
figured out that nothing lasts and time is running out
I tried to ask myself "what does it all mean?"
but present time becomes past and what is that about?
And I told myself
maybe I need some help
Cause all my certainty had turned into doubt
At twenty I had plenty
of thoughts to share with whoever would listen
But I realized soon that I didn't have any
cuz when no one's there you don't know what you're missing
Cuz at that age you
start enter that stage you
begin to realize what is real and what isn't
At twenty-four I wanted more
I had understood that life could mean anything I'd want
but I didn't know just what was in store
Sure I was good, but the question was never brought up
Just how little can I say
before it all melts away?
And me and life still haven't fully caught up
At twenty-eight I had figured out too late
that nothing is certain and set in stone
And it sure isn't a very good trait
to close your curtain and sit on your own
It's crippling inside
to know that I have tried
but I can't succeed with thoughts alone
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2. |
The Biggest Pain
04:30
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The Biggest Pain
After work I take a little detour
I drive around the park a bit alone
And you might wonder what that could be for
I need some time to think before I get home
I realize that I have got some issues
But of course I won't let anybody know
I'll go to the store and buy a pack of tissues
Hide out in my car and let them flow
And yes it hurts
for what it's worth
I never cried when someone saw me
And as I hide scars
I wish I was behind bars
I never thought I'd be so poorly
She comes out of the bathroom with an iron
I try to hide my fear as I walk around
In the mindgame of life anyone can be a tyrant
and it's not always the way it sounds
I always wished we'd get back on the right track
But a part of me wants to keep it hid
I often wish that I could fight back
but I know I'd be a monster if I did
And yes it hurts
for what it's worth
I never cried when someone saw me
And as I hide scars
I wish I was behind bars
I never thought I'd be so poorly
But I hold my head high
as I quietly sight
Knowing Rocky was bruised too
It may sound insane
but the biggest pain
is you don't love me like you used to
Maybe I'm overreacting
Maybe if I had the nerve
it would be easier to face the facts
It would be easier to live
Maybe I'm just retracting
Maybe I deserve it
She has been through a lot
Maybe I'm the better man if I just forgive
And yes it hurts
for what it's worth
I never cried when someone saw me
And as I hide scars
I wish I was behind bars
I never thought I'd be so poorly
But I hold my head high
as I quietly sight
Knowing Rocky was bruised too
It may sound insane
but the biggest pain
is we don't love the way we used to
But I hold my head high
as I quietly sight
Knowing others have bruised too
It may sound insane
but the biggest pain
Is I still love you like I used to
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3. |
I Just Wanna Be Me
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I Just Wanna Be Me
Verse 1
I don't wanna be left to my own devices
I don't want to be abondened in a crisis
With nobody looking after me
I don't wanna be suffering in silence
I don't wanna be a victim of violence
I just wanna be free
Verse 2
I don't wanna be ranked and rated
I don't wanna be isolated
put on trial or some decree
I don't wanna be my other self
I don't wanna be someebody else
I Just wanna be me
Middle 8
I don't mean to share all this sadness
the tears I cry when I'm alone
But in the end it all turns to madness
that I just can't face on my own
Verse 3
I don't want to be left in the desert
knowing I never made an effort
trying to find someone to be
I don't want to be left in a rainstorm
with thoughts and doubts that bring pain on
I just wanna be free
Middle 8
I don't mean to bring anyone down with me
Because this sure is gonna last a while
So if I'm sad you don't have to frown with me
but I'd hope that when I'm happy we can smile
Verse 4
I don't wanna be left to my own devices
left on my own discovering life's surprises
and let it be that way eternally
I don't wanna be the one that's sad and sorry
I don't wanne be another sappy story
I just wanna be me
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4. |
When Apples Were Golden
03:43
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When Apples Were Golden
Verse 1
Back when apples were golden
Back when the sky was blue
When the world looked beautiful
Maybe for me, not for you
I have things to borrow and lend
but there had to come a day
So at tomorrow at ten
I'll be on my way
Verse 2
They love to play with the devil
Stay away from the women of death
Rituals on another level
Curses from the depths of her breath
There's no sense in counting
There's no safety in numbers now
When you're on Dyers Mountain
It won't matter anyhow
Bridge
For some the apples are rotting
For some they are golden still
For some the apples are rotting
Verse 3
I didn't meet her at a road
I met her at a café
With a "haven't we met before?"
She took my life that day
I must rid my sorrows by then
I must hold my pants by the seams
Cuz at tomorrow at ten
I'll meet the girl of my dreams
Ends
For some the apples are rotten
For some they're golden still
For some they're as golden
As they'll ever be
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5. |
NMA
04:16
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NMA (Negative Mental Attitude)
Verse 1
When I see a plane in the sky
I think of it falling down
I need to have music in my ears
Because I’m afraid of every other sound
When I feel pain in my heart
That’s better than not feeling anything
And when I start to doing stuff
I know I’m just gonna screw up everything
“So what’s with all the negativity?
The disappointed looks you are giving me?
You’ve got a roof over your head, warm clothes and food!”
Chorus
But I’ve got a negative mental attitude
There’s nothing to do about that though
I’m being selfish, mean and incredibly rude
and I don’t know where anyone’s at so
I have a negative mental attitude
I ruin parties by just stepping by
I must prepare for a life in solitude
Cuz happiness only makes me cry
Verse 2
When I buy someone a gift
I only think of exploitation
and Western destruction
of a third world nation
When I cry I feel better
because it means I’m alive
Maybe pessimism is the only
way we can survive
“What happened to positivity?
Adversity is the new epidemy
Can’t you just get a clue and be happy dude?”
Bridge
Positive thinking and social drinking
getting new acquaintances and friends
But new relations and high expectations
will only let you down in the end
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